Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Yes, I made some terrible mistakes in my past. Here are the list:
  1. I was not a good daughter for my mom for my whole life until she passed away. I fought with her almost all the time. If you want to read, click here.
  2. I was not a good daughter for my father either, but now I realize and try my best to be his best daughter.
  3. I messed around with some guys both for fun or seriously. And the last one was the worst case I've ever had. I regret it with my whole heart for this past two years. Even though he started first. My mistake was/is I wasn't able to be firm, I couldn't act right. But then this mistake affected my whole element in my life: family, friends, boyfriend, workforce. I didn't know if it was gonna be like this. It gave me a huge massive humility, embarrassment and all that decrease my value as a young woman. I yelled in my heart that it wasn't my fault. But then, after two years, my regret and my guilty feeling didn't disappear. More or less, part of it was my mistake.
And for this Ramadhan, my second Ramadhan after my marriage, after my "returned-insanity", after I grown-up and responsible, I'd love to apologize for all my mistakes.

I admit that I was naive, I was stubborn, I was selfish, I was arrogant and anything you could say. All I could say is I didn't mean to hurt anybody, I didn't know the effects, I didn't know how an adult should think and act.

So, from the deepest from my heart, I apologize for all my terrible mistakes. May Allah forgive all of our sins, and we could welcome Ramadhan with pure hearts.



written on Friday, 29 July 2011
originally from this blog

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